new year resolution

cliche right?

every year most people will update their FB statuses, blogs, etc about their new year resolution. but for me, this is my first year that i decided to have one. i am not doing it just so that i'll join the bandwagon.

the truth is, i never really trust myself to have a resolution because i am too afraid that i'll be flustered if i am not able to achieve it. and i find myself achieving things that i've never planned to achieve so i thought, "i am not the resolution type of person.i am more of a doer".

here is the thing about doing new things everyday in your life.you do it, and you achieve it. that's it.

i never really feel the hurts and sweats of achieving something that i really want since i'll just do the things that i want at that particular moment. there were times that i didn't achieve what i aimed for. but why should i care?i have just thought about having/achieving it moments ago.

that is why this year i choose to look back and ponder. by having a new year resolution this year, it might change my attitude to the better. i am hoping that i'll be more grateful with people around me and the things that i have. insyaAllah

and for this purpose, i have chosen a verse from Al-Quran to keep on reminding me about being grateful

Be ever grateful to Allah for everything that you possess including your wealth, health, status, intellectual abilities and life. Allah says:

“Is, then, He Who creates comparable to any that cannot create? Will you not, then, take heed? For should you try to count Allah’s blessings, you could never compute them…” (An-Nahl 16:17-19).

so..the question is, what is my 2013 resolution? 

*drumroll*

may year 2013 be the year that i discover my true passion. *cough*

some people might not see this as a resolution..finding passionn??lol. but in my case, it is a serious situation. i love to do a lot of things! knitting, sewing, baking, teaching, reading, travelling etc. but i can't really find what is the utmost thing that will make me really happy doing it..so, i hope that i'll discover it by the end of this year. ;) 

read

"In dire need of a peaceful reading spot"

that is my current facebook status.
I seriously need a space for me to do my readings.

My room is too comfortable and it is no longer a conducive spot for me to read.i prefer to sleep on my comfy bed rather than straining my eyes reading.
I miss my ipba room.it is the melting pot for any kind of activities.suitable for sleeping,reading,exercising,eating,watching movies and many more.lol.

But the place that i missed most is Vic's library.i missed my usual spot where i'll read books from cover to cover and no one will bother me.good things always end fast ey?

Went to the school library just now and i just stood in front of the door without making any effort to go in because i saw all the shoes and i've started imagining how crowded it will be in there.so i start to walk back to the staff room and staring at the book that i am currently reading.

Took my phone and started to blog instead..

Help me -.-*

Resetting my priorities

Ever since i've started teaching, i realised that my priorities hv changed and i am okay with it. BUT, theres a part of me feels like i have to reset my priorities again n start to re-include all the things that i love to do. Juggling many things at once is not a simple task. But i NEED to do it. Or else, i'll go nuts. I cant keep on doing what i am currently doing for the rest of my life. I need things to keep me sane. Things that used to make me happy and accompanied me throughout my thick n thin. O'Allah, please give me strength to go through this phase.

"Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not." (2:216)

Humility.

‘The true servants of the Most Merciful are those who behave gently and with humility on earth, and whenever the foolish quarrel with them, they reply with [words of] peace.’
(al-Furqan 25: 63)